Debt is Maxed and Business is Zero

I just wrote this whole sob story about money and my business. But what it comes down to is I’m making no money and my debt is maxed out. I feel like a complete failure in my coaching business and life.

I don’t know how to create money and enough value or the exact value they would need to make my business actually a business. I sometimes think I’m too broad or vague or I don’t even know how to explain what I do. It’s a constant thing I hear my brain think and I suppose I play that out.

I hear and see other coaches with years of holding themselves back finally get serious and some made 60k in a few months after making nothing. I can only wish that would be my story. Yet I feel like it’s never going to happen for me. I’m overwhelmed with all the things I need to do or I don’t know what to do. I’ve hired coaches but not a particular business coach and now I can’t even hire anyone. I have absolutely no resources for my business.  So I have to do everything on my own. It’s been overwhelming that I don’t do all of it. I try my best on organic marketing yet I know I can do or should do more but I don’t.

My money beliefs are so stuck in a pattern of this false sense of cushion I give myself to borrow money to stay afloat in my bills yet it never lasts me long enough because I’m in so much debt.  I then make no money in my business and it just grows and grows.

I don’t know what to do or what I need to do. I’ve tried various things but yet it’s not enough to produce anything.  I feel like a complete failure to myself and my family.  My friends look at me and say I told you so and you can’t make 100k in a coaching business . They all laughed when I told them that that is what I was hoping for.  It’s been a big joke on me and too many years of not making money.  I only made 10k last year and nothing this year.

But it’s now years of having this business and it feels like I should just get an office job but yet that’s not what I want to do. I want to be successful in this. Help me understand how I can really believe it’s possible. Meanwhile I am the first person to say anything is possible yet my proof of that is that it’s anything but possible.