Divorce about whole life

I am getting divorced and feel as if the divorce is impacting my entire life.
I see people/friends and think “they made a life together.” I used to think I had made a life together with my husband, but I didnt.
So I think: “They made a life together. I wanted to do that.”
F: heartbroken and a little hopeless
A: cry, sometimes try to figure out where I went wrong.
R: not making my life now? Or just making a life of being sad my life didn’t work out?