Feeling for homework-lb

Can you please help Me identify the feeling I have. This circumstance is a friendship, the thought is I want my friend to miss me, I am looking for one word for my feeling. The feeling is being dependent on an External circumstance to feel worthy. The thought has to do with longing and hoping and wishing for this person who has not been in very good contact with me to miss me terribly. It feels as if I need to control the c to feel worthy. So what is the feeling I should write down? Thank you