Finally communicating with husband about our distance in our relationship

C-husband said I hurt him daily because I am really rude.
T- I believe him.
T- I really don’t like living with him (I felt that way even if he had not said that.)
F-super sad
A- I want to cry, shrivel up, withdraw, and leave this friggin marriage.

Hi! I know we cannot have two thoughts, but I wanted to paint a picture.
Would you mind helping me clean this model up please?
And relationships that take a lot of thought work suck!!!!!
(Ok, I know, that was judgemental and a new model is needed!)
Thank you so much!