Friend Filled her Retreat

My friend told me that she had almost filled the retreat that she had organized and was very happy about it. My first reaction was feeling disheartened and like a failure. This past year I launched a business and had a lot of failures in it. I am constantly beating myself up for failing because usually I am the person helping others with their businesses. I’m envious that she has found and is living her passion. I thought that I was and now I no longer feel like I even know what that is. I know that this comes from a place of scarcity but I am having trouble getting out of this negative thought loop. I feel like I am half in on different things in my life but never all in.
I am not even quite sure how to start this model because there are really several models in it. Thank you for your insight – you are all amazing!!