How to break my logjam of confusion

I’m a teacher and have been a member of another membership for the past year focusing on using my time more efficiently as a teacher at school and at home. Suddenly this month at work, it’s like by magic I’m all caught up. And staying caught up. And working ahead. All the systems are lining up, and it’s amazing.

And, at the same time, I feel my home life is at a standstill. It’s not because I don’t have the time – implementing systems at school and home over the last year took care of much of the overwhelm. As examples: I lost some weight over the summer and have stalled out on that. I want to exercise, but haven’t. My house is bugging me with all its crap, but I don’t clean out any of it. I want to start a side business, but don’t take any steps.

I’ve been in Scholars for 4 months, and I do homework almost daily, do models, have taken advantage of tutoring, but then I change nothing based on what I learn about myself.

Maybe it’s typical? Maybe I’ve been running so ragged for years that I kinda don’t know what to do with myself now that the pressure has eased? We had a crisis recently where I had to really ramp up my volume of obligations at home and while it was a sad situation I was kind of thrilled to be orchestrating, organizing, DOING.

I can see from even writing this that it is FILLED with confusion. I am also unsure just exactly how to quell that confusion. Any ideas for how to break the logjam would be welcome.