IG 2019 model question

I need help with an intentional model please.
Current model
C- Changes to childcare routine due to need for attending meetings related to my career goal for 2019
T- Are the kids going to be stressed by these changes? Am I going to rock the family boat in the process?
F- Guilt
A- make excuses for not attending these mettings
R- not showing up in the way I want to at work

The result here is not aligning with my thoughts. so I am having trouble understanding this and also coming up with an intentional model. help please. This is my greatest fear with the IG 2019. That i might somehow jeopordize my family’s peace and connection by going after my goals.