Im actively trying to ruin my marriage

Hi Brooke. Thank you for all you do and how you serve, im learning so much. In doing a model tonight for an argument with my husband, I realize that EVERY time we have days off together – I pick a fight. My brain is ACTIVELY looking for how I can get offended or irritated with him. I have no idea why im doing this. In completing a model, I know I can choose a thought like “Im grateful for time with him.” But something is still not clicking. How can I get a more effective modle for this? I feel like im stuck and cant get this cycle to budge. Thank you!