Model help- lb

A dear friend ended our friendship several years ago after a situation where i let a bunch of stuff bottle up and then i yelled and was angry- i apologized and dealt with the best i could, im satisfied with how i dealt with but still struggle with her ending friendship. I have a new friend who is very outspoken and im working on a model . Feeling stuck. c: steph t: its unfair she gets to act however she wants and is still accepted and adored by her close friends f:resentment a: inwardly critizce her, continue to beat myself up, resent, ruminate about oast, envy her what she has, missing out on me, judge myself as lesser r: ???? Rhis is where im stuck
Thank you!!