My Life is Amazing and I’m freaking out about it.

I realized during a private coaching session while getting coached on wanting to be more intentional about social media that I’m actually living such an amazing life that I’m upset when I don’t use my time intentionally and do things that take me away from it. I actually sort of panicked about it weirdly enough because I don’t think I’ve ever been here, “here” being “not currently in crisis mode with a bunch of drama”. It’s so foreign I feel like I don’t know what to do with it. I could never imagine a future before and I joined scholars 8 months ago just to try not to feel miserable. I wanted to leave my husband, hated where I lived, overspent like crazy, and didn’t like myself at all. And now that I’ve tackled those issues… I’m actually crazy uncomfortable all the time! Now I feel like I actually have to envision a future life and pick something to do with it. You’d think I’d be thrilled about this and in many ways I am but…. I’m also anxious and having a lot of fear and wanting to buffer against uncertainty. What’s up with that?