Nothing has gone wrong part 3

Still working on my 12 pound weight gain.
I really want to find neutrality with this circumstance and compassion. I’ve gained weight because I’ve used food to buffer and I could just use the fact of my weight as an indication I still have work to do on feeling my feelings. It’s just part of my journey. When I lost the weight before I was so focused on my goal it fueled me to just push through to get there but I wasn’t ready for maintenance. And I hadn’t cemented my thinking on how I wanted to eat long term. So the weight is back and i get to do it again with more information.
I don’t want to spend the rest of my life losing and regaining the weight but maybe if i learn more about myself each time it’s not all for nothing.
And I keep practising the thought im 100 percent worthy at this and any weight.