Numbness? (Nadège)

Dear Coach,
Thank you so much for your answer – so interesting, as always!
For about 2 weeks now, I’ve been writing down about the vibrations I’m having in my body every morning and every evening to learn about emotions. I’ve come to realise that they’re not (at all) as painful as I thought they would be. I really thought they would be excruciatingly painful and that I would be a mess for everyone to see.
But yesterday evening, my 7 year-old daughter was brushing my hair and she inadvertently pulled it. It hurt. Much more than the worst vibrations I’ve been experimenting with lately.
So here’s my question: am I still numbing my feelings or is the awful idea I had about emotions really nothing like reality?
Thank you!