Open to possibility

Hi Brooke; I am currently working on a model:
C: Job/career
T: Would like to try something completely different
F: Confused (what do I want), Hopeless (too old), Apathy (meh, why try?)
A: None 🙂
R: Same job, same stagnation, same dream to do something different
I know for sure I want more freedom, creativity, and more joy in my work life, but when I start to even think of what it might look like, it seems completely fairy tale and untrue for me. So I go back to my same, same unfulfilled life.