Should I cancel?

I have been paying since January for this self coaching but have not been using it. I really want to do it, I read the material but don’t follow through. This is my problem in my personal life, or one of my problems. I know this is a wonderful opportunity but I cannot get going, I keep thinking I have wasted over $1000 but don’t want to cancel and regret it. How do I kick my own ass and get going on this?