Should I even bother trying to lose weight?

Hello, I need help thinking through my issue about losing weight. I don’t even know if I “should” be trying to lose anything.

I am technically not overweight — I weigh 135 and am 5’6″. My doctor said my BMI is healthy. I used to weigh 125 in my early 20s (I’m now 41.) I would like to be at 128.

The reason is that I am not happy with how my body looks. Mainly, I think my tummy is too big (I’ve had 2 kids) and it doesn’t look as good as it could./should.

I have never gone on a diet, and I don’t think I overeat. I usually eat whatever I want, whenever I want, and listen to my body when I should stop eating. But if I want to lose weight, I feel like I should restrict my eating.

But then I get confused and wonder if I should be trying to diet at all. I wonder if I have an unrealistic or unhealthy view about my body, and should just be kinder to myself.

(I think this confusion comes from my childhood. My mother was constantly on a diet and always complained about her body, and still does. I can see how destructive it is when she does it, but I’m not sure if I’m following the same cycle.)

Can you help me think this through? Thank you in advance.