The thought that life is pointless

I’m creating a lot of negative feelings for myself at the moment. I keep having the thought life is pointless. It makes me feel depressed. I can’t see anything to look forward to and any reason to go on. I know it’s my thoughts creating this feeling. I did some coaching on it and found the thought that life is a gift. It created much better feelings and actions. But today I find myself wallowing again in the negativity. I have the thought that it’s so hard to hold onto the better thoughts and the old ones keep creeping in. I guess this is the river of misery.

I guess I just need to keep self coaching my way through it. A lot of the time I’ve been buffering with food to escape and distract but the past few days I really want to not use food in that way but it’s so uncomfortable.

Any advice besides just keep going?