Thoughts about meds for anxiety

I had been taking an antidepressant for anxiety for approx. 7 years and decided to go off of it, and within the past week just started it again because the anxiety I’ve been feeling is constant overwhelming. I was feeling constantly irritable and overwhelmed. But now I feel like I am using it to buffer my actual feelings of anxiety that come up and instead of working through them I’m just numbing them out. My thoughts right now are that I am ‘failing’ at actually doing SCS work because I’m using the meds instead to get rid of the anxiety. Just looking for some insight on this…thanks!