Working the Model with my Kids

I joined Self-Scholars last week and immediately logged on and watched the whole Over Eating Workshop. That was a game changer and now I’m committed to honoring my self and my decisions made ahead of time. The difference in just one week is incredible – not only weight lost, but so much drama lost in my mind around food. THANK YOU BROOKE!
My other biggest issue now is with my kids. I have a 5 year old and 2 year old and they stay at home with me. Next year my 5 year old will go to full day Kindgergarten, but I will be home with my 2 year old for 3 more years. The issue is that I want to enjoy being a mom and being with my kids – but I don’t. I am stressed, I have little patience, I yell, I ignore them so I can take care of things around the house and/or some time for “me”, I get annoyed when they interrupt my plans/projects, and everything seems like such a struggle (walking to and from the car from our condo is something I dread everyday because it takes FOREVER). My kids are super active and non-stop and can do very little independent play (without fighting) for more than a few minutes. I don’t mind putting them in front of the TV for a bit each day, but I don’t want to put them there long, and I don’t want to think of the TV as the only way that I can survive the day. I do not want to go back to work to “escape” my kids either. I want to be with them and make the most of these important years building a foundation with them, but I feel like I am ruining them instead. Any help on how to make a model of this?