Believing and not creating my result


I have been doing the work of self-coaching for the last 6 years.
I fall out of belief. I get back into belief. Not a problem.
I failed. I learn from my failures. Not a problem.

I haven’t created the result I want.
I haven’t reach my goal.
Probably because I am believing something.
And I don’t know what it is.
I honestly don’t know what I am believing today that is preventing me from reaching my goal.
I have been working on my beliefs for the last 6 years and I have uncovered a lot. Great job.
Is there something left that I am not seeing ?

Maybe I am not believing something.
I have been trying to create a new belief : “I am already the CEO my future company needs me to be”
My brain doesn’t believe it.
My brain believes that that CEO is a better version of myself, a version that I am not yet.
Truth is I am already the CEO of my future company. YES.
But am I the CEO it needs me to be in order to grow and to expand ? If I was already that CEO, I would already have reached my company goal!
And I have not.
When I try to take actions from the T “I am already the CEO my future company needs me to be”, I feel scared, I froze. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what action to take. And worse, I do the opposite : I take actions that prove to myself that I am not the CEO my company needs me to be. I am actually making things worse.

Why am I not reaching my goal ?
Because of a thought that I have ?
Because of a thought that I don’t have ?

After 6 years of working on that and NEVER reaching my company goal I feel like I have been lied to : thoughts don’t create results.
I have been into belief.
I truly have.
And I didn’t reach my goal.