Okay so I wrote the other day about how I have no money to pay my bills and I’m freaking out because I have no clients.

I said I’d have to :

– Work more hours at my current job
– Move in to my boyfriends to save money
– Find clients

But my worry was “ It feels so urgent and I don’t know how the hell im going to figure this out”

So the next day I drove home with all this in my head. It felt like it was consuming me.

I looked over at the bus stop and saw the homeless on the ground bundled up.

I quickly realized why… these options that I have aren’t bad at all.

I actually have OPTIONS.

I’m not trying to figure out how I’m going to get warm for the night.

Although it felt in a way like that’s where I was headed.

But in reality, it’s really not.

So then I went a few days thinking about it since I hadn’t read a response on here.

My worry and self doubt came in waves — MANY TIMES.

I mean it’s still there.

Even with it there.

I realized a few things :

– I can choose to do over time, move In With my boyfriend and look for clients all at the same time and it wouldn’t be a big deal.

– it’s tax season so that will help me

– I’m not going die because of this

– It will get better as long as I don’t allow myself to shut down in self pity and worry

Soo now, I’ve decided I’m going to create a webinar (I asked yesterday about the webinar title) to try and get some clients.

I’ve never done this — and again — my fears and worry come in when I think about this but I’m still going to do it.

I realized that in the Dotcom Secrets book i got a while ago has a webinar structure on there and I actually got excited going through that chapter and jotting down notes and ideas for my content.

So that’s where I’m at.

I’m working on my doubt everyday.

Some days it feels like I’m losing the battle and other days I can see the road to where I want to go.

I guess I can figure this shit out when I separate the math from the drama.

I did a model and the result was “Bills paid, Clients made”

It rhymed perfectly so I’m sticking with that as my focus. Haha.

Can’t wait to see you in Feb at Masterclass.

I’m going to be your best student. ❤️

I promise to laugh at all your jokes LOL.