I cannot get out of my own way..In any area…


I know that at the beginning of the SCS they said you will feel overwhelmed but, don’t let it take you over. It has been my habitual response to everything I do..I am flailing in all areas of my life. I left my job 3 years ago to pursue my passion which is speaking and I have not been able to get myself into a successful position with it all. I had some success but have not yet created a career out of it..So, I get overwhelmed, compare myself to others who appear to be successful and abandon ship.. Today I watched a video of Brooke planning out a book funnel and listened to the podcast on productivity..that threw me over the edge …I feel like even more of a failure now as I don’t know what to do or how I can get out of this mindset..I have tried working the model on it…BUT, I am afraid I do not believe that I can be successful….I am stuck in my own BS for years.. I also have all kinds of certifications (Reiki, meditation, kids yoga, intuitive readings) and things I can do but, I try something to do that and when I don’t see an immediate result I truly believe no one wants me and I can’t do it..which leads me again to abandon ship…. and stay stuck in this hell…I also overeat and overdrink..what a surprise…