When I think about working on two contracts, trying to revive my dormant blog, and some scheduled work days, and my family responsibilities, I feel overwhelmed. What keeps coming up for me is that my life is boring and no fun. This is particularly the case when I fill my calendar with my plans for productive activities. It feels like a prison. I notice that I have the belief that working isn’t fun–even when it’s something that I theoretically enjoy doing. I also notice that I have very low tolerance for boredom.

UM
c- calendar with a variety of earning-related activities scheduled this week
t- My life is no fun
f- depressed
a- buffer (food, drink, alcohol, facebook, caretaking family); complain about my work; look for evidence that there is no fun in my life; sometimes don’t work; don’t look for fun in my life; don’t plan fun things (because not sure what would be fun that I can afford and have time for); think of myself as a serious, boring person
r- My life is no fun

In my intentional model, I am starting with the result and trying to work my way up…

IM
c- calendar with a variety of earning-related activities scheduled this week
t- I’m learning to have fun no matter what I’m doing
f- fun
a- don’t buffer; get my work done without drama; plan fun things; look for the fun in everything I do; look for evidence that I am a fun person
r- My life is becoming more fun.

Thanks in advance for any feedback that you can offer 🙂