Back in the River

Hi….I’ve been in SCS for a year and a half and I am still struggling with food. I get around 25 days of eating on protocol and have allowed 56 urges so far. BUT eventually the urges catch up and my mind outsmarts me and somehow i find myself bingeing again. The shame and remorse follows with days of eating and a 3-5 lb weight gain. I start all over with about a week or two in the river of misery. This has been happening over and over again and not sure what I am doing wrong…thank YOU