Failed scholar

So Heading into the new year, and I was doing really great when I first started scholars. Then I think fear and doubt consumed me so now im here at another year of trying to feel better about myself and my life (which isnt bad at all!!). Ive come a long way from when i started, i have changed some beliefs and others definitely need work. I never went after my goal last year and my it feels as though im drowning in my own thoughts and self pity. Things are good and yet I feel awful. I want to start this journey again. But i feel as though i know so much about what you teach that I dont know where to begin. I know so many of your concepts that i dumbfounded of where the starting point is. Where do you suggest?