Impossible 2020 Goal

My impossible goal for 2020 is to make 147k by Dec 31st 2020. I’ve chosen this goal because I want to develop the skill set of someone who makes 147k (I currently make 52k) and I think this would be a great way to measure that. What I now realize is that I just want to feel emotionally mature (practicing living in emotional adulthood). I want to feel courageous and proud. I am working on my 25 results for this quarter and wondering how can I put those wanted feelings into measurable results? My brain went ahead and answered that, the feeling is a by product perhaps?! If I am working on my accountability to myself to stay focused during work hours and I collect 100 urges. I will feel the discomfort and pride. Would love your thoughts on this.