My father died

Dear Brooke,

My father died on Monday. We had a great relationship and were very close. (I know we still do and still are, since it’s just my thoughts, but you know what I mean.)

I’ve been allowing all the emotions and going into the experience as openly as I can.
The thought “I’m processing grief” that Bev used in a recent Diamond training has been very useful.

One of the things I’m struggling with is that I saw him on his hospital bed moments after his death. It was my first time seeing someone like this, and it was a shocking and heartbreaking experience that my brain keeps going back to.

The main thought I’m having about it is, “I didn’t want to see him like this”, causing grief and distress.

I would like to find alternative thoughts to soften the memory of it, and help me process the experience.

Any suggestions?

Thank you,
Clotilde in Paris.