My sneaky perfectionism

A big part of my work that I’ve done in scholars has been allowing myself to do B- work. I have gained confidence, productivity and stepped outside where I am comfortable. I had been creating a lot of anxiety for myself around my thinking which really improved. As I have challenged myself in many areas of my life (starting a business with my husband, a promotion with my own job, working on weight loss), I’ve found my anxiety increasing again. I have been waking up in the middle of the night anxious. What I realized that I’m doing is explaining in my mind, why my work is B-. I’ve made lots of mistakes and had failures. Although I’m doing B- work sometimes, I’m really not accepting myself for these imperfections. In the middle of the night last night, I figured out this is what I’m doing and I came up with this thought … “I can do B- work and have my own back.” My anxiety went away immediately.

Thank you for all of these tools. You’ve completely changed my life and I’m amazed how I continue to uncover these thoughts that are really keeping me stuck.