Pain now podcast –

It’s like today’s podcast was recorded just for me.

I’m dealing with some unexpected health and work circumstances, and really want to lean in and allow the feelings, negative emotions come up.

I have to get a surgery, very soon, and didn’t anticipate this at all. I don’t know when it will be, just yet, but from what my doctors are telling me, I imagine it will be in the next few weeks.

I feel: sad, scared, overwhelmed, disappointed, and anxious … primarily. And grief… like, I never anticipated I would have this type of medical condition and I’m feeling grief over it. Grief about my body.

The A-line looks a lot like crying, venting, compartmentalizing, researching, etc.

Some of it feels like leaning into the pain, some of it doesn’t.

Some of it feels like allowing, the crying, the researching.

Some of it feels like bubbling up, and closing myself off, and hiding.

Can you expand on allowing the feelings to just be.

I’ve noticed that I can’t seem to get to an IM with this. And I get it. I’m not ready.

I’m not clean on making a decision for how to handle this time off from my business, if I need to hire people, tell my clients, etc. Or what to do about childcare. Or celebrating the holidays while healing? All of it.

I’m trying to get to the place where being sad is welcomed, and that’s okay.

And somehow making some semi-clear headed decisions about my business from that place. But, there is urgency to this… So I can’t spend months ruminating on things, how I want to act, etc.

Thank you for some direction here.