thank you! and a weight struggle

Hello Dear Brooke,

I know you’ve heard this so many times before, but I am compelled to express my gratitude for how you have changed my life.

First, thank you for the Modelthon last week. It was so lovely to meet you in person. You are so brilliant and so, so kind. You are such and inspiration. I have to admit that I was a little star struck and feeling awkward, so I apologize if I came across as needy/creepy (I was the brunette with long curly hair that sat across from you at our table at lunch).

Your coaching is amazing. So, so spot on, kind, humorous, and always so helpful and life-altering.
Like many of your followers, I have been considering applying to your coaching school. I truly love my current job and make great money working 3 days per week. However, my mind keeps seeing coaching in my future. I know I need to be better at coaching myself first, before considering coaching others! I am so happy helping people in my current profession, and I know if I pursue coaching in the future, I will be terrified at first, but will be happy with coaching too.

I appreciate your incredible generosity in sharing all your hard earned knowledge in such an effective way.
I have shared with you during a previous coaching call that I don’t believe that my life is really 50/50…more like 80/20! Much of my life is so darn wonderful.
I was previously worried that I was “waiting for the other shoe to drop” because things were just so good.
I now just appreciate the good in my life. It’s a waste to worry about the future. Problems will come, like they always do. I will enjoy the present!

I’ve been married for 15 years to a lovely man that I know deep down loves me, but doesn’t show it in ways that my manual dictated. This led to many, many fights, bouts of low self esteem, depression and over all yuckiness in my life for so many years.

Knowing that all this pain and suffering was caused by my thinking has freed me so much. I now get to love my husband so that I get to feel that love. All this while I have been angrily waiting for him to love me more, when all I needed to do was love MYSELF more. I am tearing up just writing about this. I have so much more peace in my life now. This past year I have had NO bouts of depression.

I am also a mother to two lovely girls, and your teachings have helped me to become a kinder, more patient mother. They also will get the benefit of growing up knowing that their thoughts create their feelings! 😉

My big goal for last year was to lose weight for the final time. This is the first time in my life that I know I will not gain all the weight back (like all the other times). I’ve lost 40 pounds, for a total of 55 pounds down from my highest weight. I have 15 more pounds to get to my goal weight. The past three months I have been buffering on and off with food and playing with being on and off protocol. I keep running into people that have not seen me in years and they are always so shocked and delighted at my weight loss. Instead of this motivating me to lose the last amount of weight, I find myself reaching for sugar and flour (which are not on my protocol). My TDs revealed thoughts that “I know I can eat this now and just go back on protocol tomorrow and lose the weight right away.” This sneaky thought has had me gain and lose the same 5 pounds over and over again. I’m pretty pissed at myself, but also know that negative thinking will not get me positive results. I am figuring out how to lose the last 15 pounds!!!

Furthermore, I recently had a upsetting medical finding. I have the antibody for an autoimmune disease, rheumatoid arthritis. At first, I cried, was angry and upset. How could this happen to me? This was not a part of my life plan! Then I quickly realized that this is even more reason to stop dilly dallying with my health. I am instead appreciating how gloriously fantastic my body is right NOW, instead of worrying about how it will degenerate in the future. Thanks to your teachings, I am not wallowing in self pity and worried about the future. I am grateful for myself right now and know I have the tools to handle what will come in the future.

I apologize, this post feels a bit rambling, but I just wanted to express my gratitude.

My brain wants to say that I am struggling with the last bit of weight loss, but I know I need to change this to “I am figuring it out.” I don’t think you could give me any advice for this. I know I need to allow my urges. It is so damn hard.

Sending you much love, and hoping you will find an even more stupendous location for your future school!