accepting my body right now

I keep thinking I will be better or more worthy when I weigh less, and don’t seem to accept myself right now…I think I keep trying to lose weight from a self-loathing, judgmental place…Is is more worthwhile to work on loving myself before trying to lose weight?
Brooke says to think ahead of time before stepping on the scale – I think “my body is just the right size” or “I have the perfect body” and there is a slight bit of hope – but then the other thoughts come rushing in like “you’re never gonna get this” “might as well give up” “you know you want to be smaller.”