Doing this without slipping into disordered eating patterns (multi-year history of orthorexia and anorexia)

Hey Brooke, thank you so much for doing this. I want to lose 8 lbs in June, it would be healthy for me to lose this weight, and I do not have an eating disorder anymore but I have tried your weight loss work before and I just don’t know how to do it without hating my body & controlling my eating from a punishing place. I eat extremely healthy foods (100% whole foods, no grains except sometimes quinoa, no sugar outside of fruit, and following your food list). My issue is overeating during my window (I intermittent fast from 8pm-2pm every day). I really love the fasting and I WANT TO WANT to stop overeating, and I want to do this June work from a loving place, not a “my body isn’t good enough and I’m not good enough and I need to do this in order to feel like my body is good enough” place.

I am 5’10” and I fluctuate between 145-150 currently. I want to see if I can get down to 138. I’ve gotten close to that before but then I self-sabotage by thinking “oh cool I’m almost *there* now I can stop restricting my eating, now I can just relax and love my body and be normal. I’m not *fat*, I don’t feel like it’s an emergency for me to lose weight, I don’t HAVE to restrict my eating, I will be okay if I don’t do this.”

Maybe 145-150 is my natural weight and I just need to love my body as it is? Thank you so much for your perspective.