I am feeling lost, I have gained about 30lbs in the past year. I can feel my body ache because of it but I still constantly self sabotage….
I was down 4lbs but this weekend gained 4lbs
I am doing my best to have grace with myself but honestly I am so irritated because I know how badly I want this yet I am constantly breaking my word to myself or having a conversation with myself about a craving and still give in to it… (ironically I am such a person of my word to other people)
I am doing models and thought downloads but after a week or 2 of making progress when it comes to the moment of a decision to eat something not on protocol its like I throw it all out the window
I have success everywhere else in my life expect with my weight and I refuse to give up but I just feel lost at the moment…