Writing down what I will eat

I’m having real resistance to writing down what I will eat the next day. I don’t want to make that commitment and not allow for cravings. But since cutting out flour and sugar a few months ago I’m not actually eating anything off protocol. Also since I’m cooking more I’m actually deciding the night before what I will eat by defrosting what I will cook. So I’m actually doing it. But I’m resenting and resisting the thought of planning my meals and denying myself the satisfaction of following through. Because I hate the thought of the commitment and not allowing for freedom tomorrow.