3 Years

No sex in 3 years

Is this a marriage or are we just friends or roommates?

sad, sexually and emotionally frustrated, confused, lonely (pick one emotion?! yikes!)

we did therapy, spiritual counselors, he didn’t do the homework given us by our therapists or counselors, he watches porn, i’m not a porn star, I think about divorce, I question the definitions of words like “marriage” and “friendship” and what those mean to me, I wonder if what I want matters, I wonder if I matter, I contemplate suicide,