50/50


I wish I can feel 50/50, I feel that my life is 80%bad feelings 20%good for the longest time, I try to keep the belief that things will change that everything will work out, I keep telling myself maybe tomorrow but I the tomorrow I want doesn’t get here. I try to keep a positive attitude, rehearsal all the good thing I have in my life to make myself feel better but it doesn’t last long enough. I keep asking myself when things will change and the response I get is when you believe it but I think I do. why is so hard to believe in oneself.