50/50


50/50 concept is a game changer for me – I was always going for 99/1 😊 Or around this ratio – basically tried to “fix” myself as soon as the feeling that I didn’t like would come over . Since I’m a pharmacist , it became self medicating at some point – just to feel happy at all times or at least have no sad feelings . Late night I woke up at 4 am with slight panic coming over , I have my tools how to fix it , but I just let it happen , stopped fixing it , and … nothing happened . Turned out to be that my 20lv sphynx cat just slept on my chest and I had shortage of oxygen for a moment .
But I felt so relieved – e erything went away all I did was pause ..
eternally grateful ! Julia