“Getting it Done” September has been my most poorly implemented of all my scholars months (9 now!). It’s because, instead of having a schedule where everything calmly and coolly gets done on time and with no drama, I prefer everything to be a mad dash, a huge crisis, too much to do with not enough time, etc., so I can get a rush from the stress and adrenaline. I might be using half the things in my life to buffer from the other half, every thing to buffer every other thing. Here’s an example.

C Editing the final chapter of my book
T I should run a marathon
F Exhilarated by the prospect of finishing a marathon instead of this book I’ve been working on for 24 years
A Sign up for marathon
R Less editing time for book, book not finished

I’ve designed my life to reinforce this, i.e., my job, everybody I know has ADHD so I never have to pay attention to anything for more than 30 seconds at a time, even in conversation.

I’ve enjoyed living this way, but at this point it’s affecting two goals I want to accomplish: losing the last 20 lbs (I’ve lost 50, then started gaining and losing the same 10 because that’s more thrilling for me than success and I was angry there was no supermodel body hiding in there) and finishing this book. Both require planning and focus, not impossible to-do lists and freaking out. Any tips on how to model my way out of the addiction to doing too much?