Afraid to Travel Internationally

This summer, my husband, our daughter and I will be traveling internationally to my home country for the first time since COVID. I am not excited about it at all – I don’t like it that much there and it feels very risky to travel with COVID going around. I am afraid of catching COVID while there, getting seriously ill (given my existing health condition), and not being able to get proper care, or not being able to return back home when I was planning to.

I know I have the choice not to travel, but I feel like I have to (and a small side of me also wants to, so I can connect with family). I want to be excited about going and enjoy my time there, instead of being stressed about the whole experience both in advance and while I am there. How can I do this?