After Overeating Yet Again

I overate on the long weekend. So my weight is up again. I’m constantly working on the last 10 pounds. That thought generates sadness and disappointment. There’s something wrong with me that this is always going on. Whenever I have time off I have to spend it thinking about my weight. I just want to use my mind and my journaling for something else but I’m always back to this. If I decide to just let it be I continue to overeat and gain more weight until I work on it again. I’ve kicked cigarettes drugs and recently even drinking but food has always been my favorite buffer. Do I just accept that this will always be my access to my emotional life so I can drop the story that I’ve messed up again and just learn the lesson the overeat is trying to show me?