All I can think about is “grab ass”

Just one day, that’s all I want 🤣
One day, zero grab ass. To be less compulsive with my eating habits, or really in life in general.

I am aware of my feelings, actions, results. I have done 394748s of different models on it. I am aware of my justification, then I put myself to work (try to distract myself)- and then I swing out of being a task master and find my face head first in chocolate. I am not one to be victim mentality, but I straight up feel like I black out and wake up half way through.
I try to be as intentional as possible, but it’s almost like my brain and hands are not even mine sometimes??
I admire those that can stick to a diet, and I WILL be one of those people!