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Dear Brooke, the homework this month has got me thinking about worthiness. At one level I believe I’m complete and good enough. At another I believe I’m not good enough for society. I’m not attractive, am shy and serious and have some health issues. I have a history of being neglected that I worked on changing last month but believe that if I’d been different I would not have been neglected. I have accepted that I can love and care for myself and it’s ok if nobody else values me. I believe I’m a good person inside (my values and actions) but not good enough on the outside to be acceptable to others. I’ve spent years trying to fix the “outside” me, unsuccessfully. Do I stop trying to fix the outside? Is good enough ‘inside’ enough? Thank you.