I always feel like I should be doing something productive.

A small example of this is when I was putting my daughter to bed tonight. I was sitting in her room waiting for her to fall asleep. I thought I would play a game on my phone while I wait for her to fall asleep. I started playing and about a minute in I started to feel off. Like I shouldn’t be playing this game. I should be doing something productive. Like building my business or something the family needs like shopping or taxes.

I feel like I have so little time because of my young family to do anything productive. I guess I don’t consider being with them and spending time with them productive because it doesn’t seem to produce an immediate result like a clean room or a shopping trip does.

I don’t remember the last time I felt truly rejuvenated. Even when I go on a vacation just my husband and me, I think of it like a to do list. I need to hurry up and see all the places and do all the things and enjoy myself so I can get back to work and home life and get all the things done.

I need rejuvenation and to actually enjoy my free time. My brain just pushes me to work non-stop. Like I can’t do it all fast enough. My life is passing by too fast and I wanted to have so much more accomplished at this point in my life.

I want to enjoy my life AND make big strides towards my goals. How? Right now I feel spread thin and never enjoying it. I don’t hate it. I’m just in such a hurry that I feel I am missing it all and constantly with my nose to the grind.