Am I using LCS as a buffer?

I’m new here, I love it and addicted. So when the time has come to go to work or to do the daily chores I feel restless, feel like I loose something. Same to my relationship I don’t want my partner to interrupt my work by talking to me because I just want to focus on my mind issues whenever I have time at home.
I think I was observing my mind & feeling all my life too much too long without really showing up to the world. Maybe that is my addiction. So here’s the same thing happening again. I don’t want to use LCS as my new buffer. I know LCS is too good to use unproductive way. I want to use it, learn it and live an authentic life.
What advice would you give? Thank you so much!