Anxiety and social events

Have noticed lately a lot of thoughts around being a burden if anxious in social situations- frustrated by my lack of ability to feel like I’m being myself due to anxiety when I’m with others.

I want to socialise and I get out and do it but notice it’s a lot less enjoyable when I’m anxious:

I’m aware that it’s not the feeling of anxiety that’s the issue, it’s the sort of self rejection that creates a powerless feeling. I notice sometimes that I feel like I’m giving myself away.

Any perspective on this would be appreciated.