anxiety for putting my work out in the world

Hi Brooke thank once again for your amazing work!!
I could do with some help on emotions. My coaching practice is taking off and each time I sit at the computer my heart starts raising and I need to ride waves of anxiety. I am proud of myself for showing up anyway and get the job done. I know life is supposed to be 50/50 but these last three months have been 80 per cent unpleasant feelings and panic attacks. I love what I do but is this always going to be like this? My unintentional model: I may never enjoy success because of the anxiety it brings.. I feel Im moaning like a child…Would be so grateful for some insight