At some point…so….Whats the point


Ive been bingeing for 30 years. I have made alot of progress in scs since sept. I have successfully alloweded urges to Binge..WHICH I HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO DO……however they always catch up to me at some point. Meaning monday i want to binge….allow the urge(not easy but did it),wed…want to binge….allow the urge….so excited! Thurs want to binge….ok cant take it anymore….just binge already so i dont have to think about it anymore. And so i did. So i feel whats the point already….in the end it always gets me.