Awkwardness with a friend

Last week, on Monday, a dear friend and I talked on the phone and decided to go hiking during the weekend. She said she would think about a place to go, and that we would go Saturday, etc. We didn’t talk about it during the week, so on Friday, I asked her if she was still available. She said that she forgot and made plans with someone else, and that it would be better if I didn’t go with them because of Covid.

At first I was filled with negative emotions because I had thoughts like “She doesn’t care about me, It’s just an excuse not to spend time with me, etc.” Now I think I processed my emotions and I don’t believe those thoughts. She’s a very good friend, and has been for a long time.

Since then, however, we don’t talk. I suppose she feels bad about all this and doesn’t dare to write to me again. On my part, what’s blocking me is the thoughts: “She screwed up, so should be the one to go back and talk to me, I don’t want to be the bigger person, I don’t want her to think it’s okay, and what would I tell her anyway?” But I do want to put that behind us and feel connected to her again. Do you have suggestions for me?

Many thanks!