Back in the pit

I spent the month of August allowing urges,developing my purpose with great insight and just when i feel im about to turn the corner ….i fall back in the pit by giving into a two day binge. I know it is that i feel im changing and becoming my best self and i want to go back….back to the comfort zone…..except its not a comfort zone….its a pit….feels awful. Will Brooke be having an online coaching program like the one starting in October for people who dont want to become coaches. Thank u