Becoming the Watcher

I want to be more aware of and conscious of my thoughts. I want to change my thoughts and feel more control of my thoughts so that I can get the results I want which is to lose 50 lbs over the next 5 months. Not an unrealistic goal. I want to stop giving into urges and stop going unconscious when those urges hit me. I’m trying to become the watcher. Some days are easier than others. I have had success watching my urges come and sitting with them while they leave. But other days, I become unconscious and and answer them. I have remorse and recommit and a start this cycle. I’m losing and gaining the same 5 lbs every week. I need some suggestions on how to be the watcher all of the time instead of some of the time. I’m on my second month in the program and feel like it’s all starting to make sense. I’m doing the daily work. I’m 3 days in on staying conscious and want to see that number increase to 30 days and 60 days and forever. I want to lose this weight for good this time. I’ve been losing and gaining all of my life. I have such big goals and plans. Just need a little help on staying conscious and overcoming this so that I can move onto the next exciting thing in my life. Thanks for any suggestions you have to keep me on track this month.