Being true to myself

Ask myself why I’m not being true to myself and keeping my word to myself.

I won’t eat Mac and cheese or drink alcohol anymore because it makes me feel terrible afterwards and causes my IBS flare ups. I love them. The Mac n cheese tastes good I shouldn’t have to give it up and so does the alcohol. (I love margaritas and I think they taste great). I feel like I’m depriving myself if I don’t eat them.

I’m not overeating with them they are on my plan but I know that I shouldn’t eat mac n cheese or drink my margarita because I feel so much worse afterwards.

How can I be true to myself? I know that I’m not as productive as I should be when I drink as I fall asleep afterwards but it tastes so good. I can’t seem to find a thought that works? Is it that I already have the thought I need but I’m not allowing the urge to be there?